New York.

I've spent the last 3 months of my life working on 2 different feature films. One in New York and the other in Florida. I've met so many amazing people and I absolutely love making movies. I fell in love completely with New York and everything about it. I will be moving there next fall. See you soon NYC!

Oh and today is Christmas Day...Happy Christmas guys! :)

♥

Dear Life,
I love you.
Thanks for everything,
Chelsy

7-17-7

Somehow, not sure how exactly, but Sean Heyboer reminded me that I have this thing. Blogger is fun but for me it's easy to forget. It's not exactly up there with myspace and facebook, how sad. I'm going to Valencia for their Advanced Film Program, whoopie! I'm not a fan of writing or directing much so its better Valencia than UCF because it is more "below the line" work. Lately I have fallen in love with the camera. I think that's what I wanna be strong in, camera work.

Laura's feature has taught me a lot and I have met so many amazing people. It was definitely an experience I won't forget. Thank you to everyone who made it special.

I move into my apartment in about two weeks. So excited. Prettygirl, my kittycat, is coming with. Everything seems to be falling into place. I realized that I can only try so hard with some things before I just have to face the fact that it isn't going anywhere and admit my defeat.

Goodnight, I'm exhausted.

no.

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rain?
A smile from a veil?Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?Hot air for a cool breeze?Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

The miles wouldn't make a difference...

I'll never understand how or why people just come and go in and out of my life. This is why boyfriends and best friends are a waste of time. But I guess "all good things come to an end" as they say. I don't understand neccessarily what makes people just up and leave you, but they do. It's almost as if they get bored with you. Friends stop calling and find new ones and boyfriends, well, they find a new girl and lie to you then dump you and continue lying. Promises mean nothing to me at all because any single person who has ever made one to me has broken it. Promises are like sweet nothings. They're sweet, but when it all comes down to it, they mean absolutely nothing. And then soon you mean absolutely nothing to that person.

This so far is what I have gathered in my 19.5 years of living. I'm also young, naive, and still have a lot to learn. Maybe one day someone can prove me wrong. But until then, I just want this all to be over with. Or maybe I just wish it never happened, at least not to me.

I sometimes feel that I have such high expectations for myself that it is impossible for me to live up to them. Anything is possible if you put your mind to it, right?

Also, this quote makes me happy. Too bad I've yet to see the movie. Hah.

"Never take it seriously, if you never take it seriously, you never get hurt, if you never get hurt, you always have fun. and if you ever get lonely, go to the record store and visit your friends."
-Almost Famous

Hello fellow "bloggers".

I want to know the answers to everything. I want to do everything. I am very happy with the decisions I am making and the people I am surrounding myself with. I'm reading a lot more but I don't feel that I have enough time right now to read all the books that I want to read. I write more. I need to start a script and a short story. Writers block, go away and stay away.

Thank you friends for being...well, for being you.